A Father's Thoughts

a bundle of joy(?) in KelTan's undeserving life...

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

A Father's Joy, A Husband's Fear

was a traumatizing experience in the delivery suite yesterday when Esther was born. the strong front i had to put up before my wife & daughter was nothing but a termite-infested century-old tree: looks sturdy on the outside, rotten & crumbling on the inside... encouraging my wife to push the baby out was fine, tho tiring. to see my daughter safe & sound was tremendous joy, but fear gripped me to see the serious face of the doctor & the faint look of my wife when she was bleeding excessively was horrifying. thoughts of losing her flashed through my mind. how was i to bring up my daughter w/o her? how can i face my daughter w/o being reminded that my wife died giving birth to her, especially when esther looks so much like grace?

thanks be to God who hears our cry for mercy & strength. now both mother & daughter are fine & will be discharged soon...

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Just Do It... Courtesy of Nike

whoever thought of this tagline must have been a very "upstairs" person. if u dun understand wat "upstairs" mean, i would recommend the movie "Just Follow Law" by Jack Neo.

back to the tagline & the "upstairs" person. a colleague just gave me the second half to this statement: don't ask. how profound the complete slogan sounds, "just do it, don't ask"... well, is this wat our "upstairs" want of us? yet, it is such an oxymoron when initiatives are implemented. hear some of these: when i was serving my NS about 10 years ago, MINDEF wanted "THINKING soldiers", yet we were often told to follow orders, no matter how stupid it may be; in the days of PM Goh, MOE talked about "THINKING schools, learning nations", my bosses & their beloved subordinates simply loved to introduce creative programmes and activities without THINKING of the true welfare of the staff and students, yet when thinking staff raised the issue, we r usually very quickly sssshh-ed out... very "THINKING" indeed...

So much events, activities & procedures have become obsolete over the years, yet these "upstairs", probably due to security issues, or more correctly, their personal psychological security issues, prefer to keep these outdated stuff in the system. worse, they THINK of new reasons to keep the old stuff in the system. seriously, i m really fed up with mindless activities that the brainless "upstairs" come up with.

when will "upstairs" ever learn, or better, THINK? i must applaud ST for their effort to check for the efficiency of our nation's "upstairs" agencies when they picked up the phone to call 10 agencies. the results showed only 1 of 10 agencies actually meet the mark. then again, will the "upstairs" of our nation ever read the newspapers? even if they do, will they actually respond according to the "downstairs" needs? or will they make use of this opportunity to THINK of new initiatives and projects to push themselves even more "upstairs"? oh, 1 agency ST missed was MOM. MOM is not very helpful in their phone calls, neither is their website really helpful. i had tons of problem when i wanted to transfer my FDW's working address etc. the phone operators (or preferably referred to as customer service officers) just follow law, must get this account, c.c. to my boss, wait for 7 working days, come back again to see if application is approved. if not approved, u can appeal to my boss, submit this, c.c. to my boss, wait for 7 working days, come back again to see if application is approved... & the cycle continues. when will the "upstairs" ever THINK for their "downstairs"?

well, i guess, the only appropriate response our nation's "upstairs" want from us is: yes, MOM...