It's Back... again... *sobsob*

the weather is back to its crazy high range of 29-35 degree Celcius... my heat-triggered eczema starts acting up again... sigh.. thankfully the cream the doc gave 2 weeks ago hasn't finished yet... still can tahan a while...

last paper today... barely scraped through my previous 3 papers in 2 days.. basically, my whole exam lasts only 50 hours, & i m at my 7 hours... jia you... going for macs breakfast w the lib gang liao...

One, Two, Three...

1 down, 2 more days, 3 papers to go... tt's my 1,2,3...
stoned already, tmr 9am & 5pm... probably zombified by 7pm... it's ok, thurs 3pm, i shall rise again... thank God for this 1st paper, not too difficult.. hope it'll b th same for the next 3 papers, but there are tons of stuff to memorize... see how la... too stoned to write anything meaningful now... shall go rest soon...

A Thorn in my Flesh...

"...to keep me from exalting myself, there was given me a thorn in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to torment me -- to keep me from exalting myself!... ...And He has said to me,'My grace is sufficient for you, for power is is made perfect in weakness."... ...for Christ's sake; for when i am weak, then i am strong." (2Cor 12:7-10) some theologians said that the thorn in Paul's flesh was his eye ailments or some bodily illnesses. i believe it not to be too far from what actually happened to Paul.

i went to the doc's on Fri. had quite an irritating itchy rash all over my upper body for the past week. calamine lotion & prickly heat powder were practically useless. the funny weather & perspiration caused the itch to be even... even... even "itchier"? anyway i guess u know wat i mean... the doc gave some tablets & cream. but the primary diagnosis he gave was mild eczema tt's heat triggered. eczema is non-curable, as far as i know; it can only be contained. to have the thot tt i'll be scratching myself crazy every year when the weather goes bonkers in april to august, it's really scary...

as i returned to the lib for exam fellowship, the Lord showed me the above passage. it truly brought comfort to me as it reminds me how insignificant bodily illnesses are in comparison to knowing Him & His saving grace. tears rolled down my cheeks as i read the passage over & over again.

Thank You for loving me, even a "leper" like me... whether i eat or drink or whatever i do, even scratch my leprous body, i'll try my best to do all to Your glory...

L-O-V-E, more like the lack of understanding of it… [wu]

*the epilogue*
abt half a year has passed since i wrote this mini-series. do click on my november archives to read the 1st 4 installations of "L-O-V-E, more like the lack of understanding of it..."

earlier today, i had just celebrated my 1st-year-together with Grace. gosh... it was amazing. a year has passed just like. yet it felt like it's already been quite a while since we got together. many things had happened thoughout this 1 year: happy things, sad things, joys & frustrations... it wasn't easy. things happened along the way such that i had even needed to read my own mini-series to remind myself what a true godly r/ship shld be. & there are only 2 main points that i can't stress enough: commitment & perseverance. i shall not elaborate on these 2 points since i had already written quite a bit before (so do read those entries to get a better idea of what i m saying). but it's really these 2 aspects of my r/ship that kept me going...

well, even now, when i look at Grace, i sometimes still wonder, who m i, wat have i done right to deserve having a girlfriend? or shld i say: wat have i done right to deserve Grace? i suppose the answer is "nothing". & therefore it is by grace i received Grace. corny i know, but it is true, i suppose... & her name is there, i suppose, to constantly remind that it isn't by my works that i m 1st saved den deserving a girlfriend, but it's wholly by God's grace upon me...

Thank You, Lord!!! we'll be constantly looking for Your guidance in our r/ship...