Psalms 119:105

i was reading a Christian book just now, and was convicted of a particular sin. actually i was convicted long time ago but can't seem to break the bondage. yet God has placed an end to my problem just that it is not yet here. the "vision" is some sort like i m in a long dark tunnel, able to see the light at the end of the tunnel, yet it seems so far... where i m is still quite dark such that the only speck of light is right at the end and i can't see anything else. kinda afraid yet having the hope of reaching the end of the tunnel. i prayed to God: Lord, i know You have already given a solution right at the end of the dark tunnel. but right now keep me from fear and sin. give me a candle or torchlight to shine my path as i inch towards the end of the tunnel.

guess wat. at the very next moment, this verse popped into my head as a song we sing in church. Thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. boy, i was shocked. God's reply was so swift. His word is the solution. Jesus is the Word of God (John 1:1-18), also the scripture is the word of God. ...and in His law he meditates day and night. (Ps1:2b) only then can we be free break away from our bondages.

ah... just look again at the picture & the Lord's swift reply. how beautiful is He, how faithful is He who watches over all His children. Thank You Father, for You, through Jesus, have given us a light to guide our path towards Yourself. Blessed be Your name, and may You keep us (me) close to You always...

Paradise: Can't Be Found Anywhere Yet Everywhere

5 years ago, i was lying on a beach chair in Clementi swimming complex, trying to find peace. somehow i went into a daze. not really sleeping yet not thinking of anything. my mind was really blank. at that time, i "felt" peace, as if in that short duration, i was in paradise.

this evening, i was in paradise again. yet my understand of being in paradise was totally different from that 5 years ago. i was a Christian for 7 years, but only 3-4 years ago was i really a believer & follower of Christ. today before me was a display of God's artistic attributes. the bright round moon in a bright blue sky, patches of clouds, rays from the setting sun, birds & their aerial display. wow!!! i was totally in awe of God while resting in His presence by the side of NUS pool & with His presence, where i was sitting turned into paradise in an instance...

people often define paradise as somewhere beautiful, relaxing. but nowhere on earth can that place be permanent. e.g. maldives. i've heard how beautiful it is, but 1 tsunami is enough to destroy 2/3 of the "paradise"... the only place in this fallen world that is forever paradise is in the presence of God. in His presence, even the most unpleasant place can be paradise. now tt i've tasted a bit of paradise, i wanna be in paradise always...

It is FiNiSHeD!!!

hahaha!!! finally it is finished!!! my 6-mth exile to JB finally came to a complete close when i handed in my report & did my presentation yest... gosh...11 more mths to go b4 i leave NUS... hopefully i dun fail any modules...

well, it's the beginning of the year, & as usual, new year resolutions sprung up. but always wonder how much of my resolutions will i keep this year... sometimes, i feel quite funny to resolve to achieve the same things i wanna achieve last year, to grow closer to God. cos it sounded as if i haven't grown closer to God even a bit bit. but shouldn't this the resolution of ALL Christians: to grow closer to God each day, each year? wat is there to be funny abt? nonetheless, i still felt funny... :)

an eventful year last year, i am forecasting another eventful, exciting year, cos the Lord seemed to impress to me certain things abt ministry, other than the usual reminders to walk closer to Him. still in the midst of consulting brothers-in-Christ, thinking & praying thru the diff ministries, knowing tt ministry is not just abt me doing stuff for God & His pple, but it's also abt me being humble to trust God in His guidance & providence, & to pick up new skills or sharpen my skills...

well, like i said, i dunno, still praying, thinking, consulting. see where He leads... :)
Happy Belated New Year!!! (learnt this from a friend this morning;he greeted me new year cos this is the 1st time we met this year... hehz...)