Saya Penat...

i really dunno why i m so tired these few days.. physically, mentally, spiritually. thankfully not emotionally, but surely my emotions are affected.. tho i kept my QT, nothing seems to come out of it this week so far.. very bad.. guess i really need a retreat, some time alone with God. can't exactly remember when was the last time i put aside a prolong period of time for God.. even my QT was quite rushed..

was reading thru some of my older blog entries yest when i came across this particular which i wrote abt Sabbath. perhaps that was God's way of reminding me to have my Sabbath, undivided time with Him. tho the focus then was on our physical body, guess our mental & spiritual health are very much tied to Sabbath. i have been teaching the bible, talking to people, studying, preparing & conducting FT, all these done in the last few weeks. these are good things to do, but mentally & spiritually taxing. & of cos i had done all these without taking a break to seek God & rest in Him.

Quoting from Experiencing God by Henry T. Blackaby & Claude V. King (my QT material), it says, "Planning is a tool God may cause you to use, but it never can become a substitute for God. Your relationship with God is far more important ti Him than any planning (or doing) you will ever do. Our biggest problem with planning (or doing) is that we plan and carry out things in our own wisdom that only God has a right to determine. We cannot know the when, or how of God's will until He tells us." (brackets mine, bold mine)

that was my problem for the last few weeks, hence accumulated to a very tired me today. guess what. the passage i quoted, it's part of my QT material for today. surely God works in wonderful ways to remind His children of Himself, cos when i started writing this entry, i couldn't remember a thing from my QT earlier.

indeed God is good, may He sustain me till end of the week where i can really spend extended time with Him...